All the things I should say but can’t/all the things you should never say but always do

 

 

I have written and erased five versions of this post. None of them were untrue; none of them were safe to post. I vomited them up and they slid off the screen. Perhaps this one will take.

<insert the worst of the things you know to be at once true and terrible and disgusting and unbearably painful, that you have been damaging yourself by denying and by keeping secret from the people who love you and care about you and would do anything for you, would give up their own desires if it meant yours would be made manifest, here>

Not here. Here is closed for business. Also, forget insert. Stick it.

 

 

 

 

 

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One thought on “All the things I should say but can’t/all the things you should never say but always do

  1. Oh darling. You write so well. You move me. You break my heart.
    Keep purging/expressing/venting/healing through your words. I hope it’s helping.
    Love and strength to you. xx

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